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I have had so much loss in the pass three years that I feel so very lost and abandoned.  I know that I am a grown woman with a husband and four kids but at times(more than I care to admit) I feel like a lost and scared child.  I talked with my Mother every single day, she was my best friend and she died three years ago, I still however had my Mother in law whom I was extremely close to.  My father died this year in May and two months later my Mother in Law died.  I just feel so empty, death leaves you feeling empty



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    • sassy wrote Aug 28, 2008

    • Pinkykay, you will be in my prayers. I know for me it’s only my faith in God and knowing that someday I will see the faces of the people I love again that keeps me going. I have lost both my parents as well so I know what your going through. Have a blessed day. Sassy


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    • ccotton wrote Aug 28, 2008

    • Pinkykay, I understand where you are, I lost my dad a couple of years ago.  I lost my pastor not long after that.  I felt really alone.  However when I think about all of the good times I shared with them I feel better.  All the times we shared, good and bad, I often sometimes laugh and cry.  You’ll get through this, I did.  Continue to pray and read, listen to uplifting spiritual music and talk about it.  God will bring you peace and comfort.  Take care.


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    • yana wrote Aug 28, 2008

    • Not much anyone can say to ease your pain. Loosing a loved one is hard.

      Surround yourself with friends, family, you have four kids, draw on their support and their need to have a healthy mom.

      Wishing you all the best, and sending you many hugs,
      Yana


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    • leeann6107 wrote Aug 28, 2008

    • I am so sorry for your loss. My father died 17 years ago. This Sunday, I am going to Az to bring my mother to my home. She is dying. I feel numb. I know that, I can get through this. It is very hard. I have lost a lot of weight. I don’t feel like eating. I have Four kids that need me. I will not let them down. I believe time will help you heal. You took the first step telling us how you feel. Talkiing about helps. Smiles from me to you.


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    • georgiegirl1 wrote Aug 28, 2008

    • Pinkykay,
      I know what you mean.  I too lost my father 2years ago and it was so hard.  I went into a terrible depression and had to go on medication for a year.  I still feel empty and alone sometimes.  I miss him so much!  I read alot of self help books and try to stay positive.  It’s gonna take some time,  Hang in there. I will keep you in my prayers. God Bless


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    • sassy wrote Aug 29, 2008

    • I found for me the best “self help” book is the Bible. God promises to never leave us or forsake us. When we walk through a valley he holds our hands and sometimes it is so bad he has to carry us. We go through these valleys so that when we make it to the mountaintop we can lead others. Praying for you all today. God Bless Sisterchicks, Have a great day


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    • pinkykay wrote Aug 29, 2008

    • Sassy,
      Thank you so much for taking the time to read  my thoughts and to leave such comforting words.  I now know that yesterday when I signed up for this site that I made the right choice.  I am finding myself again as well as seeing the light at the end of this tunnel.  

      Thank You


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    • sassy wrote Aug 29, 2008

    • That’s what sisters are for. Husbands can hold us and love us but when we need someone to truly hear our hearts and look us in the eye, someone to see us in all our bitchyness and still love us we need our girlfriends. I did not like women for most of my life, I felt they were catty and competitive and I wanted nothing to do with them. Most of my friends were guys. Now the one thing other than God that I can’t live without are those women in my life that let me call them to just rant and rave or ball my eyes out. Who let me complain about how bad my life is and then point out all the things I should be grateful for. Who think I’m beautiful when I feel the ugliest. Their my girls and I can’t believe I let so much of my life go by without them. My best friend Robin and I have been friends for 31 years!!! She was the only one who could ever penetrate the hard heart I carried around, and I get to see her in 20 days at my daughter Robyn’s wedding!!! WWWWWOOOOOO HOOOOOO


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    • sammyjo490 wrote Aug 31, 2008

    • Hi Pinkykay!
      And welcome to the site, I found it about a weeks ago and I love it. All comments are good and inspiring, and I agree with Yana that no one knows your pain but you, I lost a friend who was old enough to be my mother, but she was my best friend and I miss her so much, if she was here she would tell me "girl you better get yourself togehter because I'm fine," I hear her voice and I move on.
      You have this site to express what ever you thank and feel and no one is going to judge you.
      Take advantage of this and release what ever is pinned up in you, no matter when it hit you.
      Take care and hope to hear more from you.


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    • curlyclt wrote Sep 4, 2008

    • Losing people who you love is a very difficult situation.  Been there myself.  What helped me the most?  Prayer – not only for them, but for me.  Me, to be able to accept, and let go.  Eventually you will.  Remember, this is just a temporary situation.  If you believe (and I get the feeling that you do)you will meet again.


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    • demetra wrote Sep 5, 2008

    • Hello Pinkykay may this comment fines you well. I feel your pain my son was killed May 27th 2007 he was 26yrs old…I can’t begin to tell you how much I miss him he was my oldest son and his loss was one of the hardest things I have been through, but I realize I was not alone God held me through it all and still is…you are not alone God has you and the good part of this all is that it took all of your special loveones to make you into the woman you are today. Stand on the word and strength of God to put all of what they gave you into your family and the people around….you are Victorious and remember you are a smile for someone everyday.


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    • pinkykay wrote Oct 8, 2008

    • Lately I have been really missing my parents.  I often come in and look on the caller ID to see if any of them have called, some habits are hard to break.  I am not looking forward to the holiday’s really.  I guess I have to get myself in the spirit, I have a 6 year old and an 11 year old counting on me to be in the spirit.
      I will miss my Mother in law calling me asking me what the boys are doing for Halloween and what they will be dressed as.  Taking their pictures to send to her.  I will miss her coming up for Christmas and having a couple of bottles of wine with her while we cook dinner the night before and her wrapping presents (cause I can’t wrap worth a damn).
      I think I am missing her especially because it was so unexpected and sudden.  There is so much regret that I feel in regards to her death.  I think we didn’t fight hard enough in her behalf.  Her oncologist smacked hope right out of our hands as soon as my husband and I sat down to talk with her.  We should have taken her somewhere and gotten a second opinion.
      Sorry to be such a downer ladies, I am just in a blue funk lately.


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    • sassy wrote Oct 8, 2008

    • The Holidays are hard for me too. Oct 6 was 12 years since I lost my mom and she use to do it up for the holidays. My whole family got together no matter where they lived. For about the last 6 years it’s only been my two sisters and myself. I just pray every year to remember to be grateful at Thanksgiving for all my blessings and that at Christmas it is about the greatest gift: Jesus. He redeemed my soul from going down to the pit and I WILL live to enjoy the light” JOB 33:28


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    • ccotton wrote Oct 8, 2008

    • Pinkykay you can’t keep beating yourself up like this, you have to stop thinking if you did something different she would be here.  My dad has been gone for 3yrs. on Oct. 17th, my mom continues to say “I should have taken him somewhere else“, this will cause you so much hurt inside.  I’m sure you all did everything you could, but death is unavoidable.  Just believe she’s in a much better place and continue to live the memories you all had.  Look up to God, He is your strength!
      Take care, it’ll get better.


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