Why is everybody allowed excuses but me?  Like she was behaving that way because of PMS or he was having a nicotin fit and couldn’t have his cigarette, they were drunk.  What the hell?  Does that make it right to be rude, obnoxious or worse?  I don’t think so.  

Maybe I am psycho bitch!  Does that give me an excuse to behave any differently then anyone else?  NO!  

I think tomorrow I will have a 43 year old tantrum and see if they call in the nut house.  Because everyone will just think I Have went crazy.  Will I be allowed to pass GO because of some excuse?  I doubt it, they will just cart me off and forget me like I never existed!

Let the games begin!

Is it just me or does it seem most people are okay with little white lies?  What has happened to trustworthiness and honesty? Does NO one believe in this sort of thing anymore? Am I just being too critical or too sensitive about such things.  

I can not stand to lie, yet my honesty seems to offend people.  I am not quick with responses and I do not beat around the bush.  My openess and honesty seems to cause me much trouble alot of the time.  I don’t know how else to be.  Why would this be such a problem?  Does people really want to hear anything but the truth?

Honestly, I don’t go around trying to state the facts or offend people, but if I am asked a point blank question, I’m not going to lie to them, just so they can hear what they want to hear.

Has this kind of honesty and trutworthiness went out with the times?  Am I too old fashioned?  Am I really suppose to learn how to lie just to make others feel good about their selves or keep the peace?  

If this is the truth, I should have lived in a cave, never to come out to play.  Cause I just don’t get that, and don’t know how to be that.

Life can be so comlicated and complex at times.  I’m clueless I guess.
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This is  a unique situation that I guess I am not used to and just not sure about.  Hard to even know how to state it in words.  So I will just state what is on my mind.

As you all know I have only been married a year, to a wonderful man.  We get along great. His family as well has been very good to me. Something has been bothering me a little bit though.  His mother and him are very close.  I think it’s wonderful to have that kind of relationship, but sometimes it almost seems to close and makes me uncomfortable.  So when is close to close?

I have six sons and I just can’t imagine telling any one of my boys some of the things that my husbands mother has told him.  Real personal things.  

Here is one instance of something that my husband told me.  I happen to get cysts down in my private areas of my body.  One day my husband says yeah my mom gets them there to.  Not one of my boys has that information about me and they never will.

His mom also seems to be interested in our sex life.  NONE of her business in my opinion.  I would never share things like that with my sons or daughters.

Lately, when we go over to there house, she will single out my husband to talk to him about things, but not include me, like they have big secrets that I shouldn’t be hearing.  My husband goes over there plenty without me.  I feel if she has something private to talk to him about, that is when it should be said, when I’m not around.  

I’m starting to feel un-welcomed and not near as comfortable being over there.  My husband constantly tells me how close his mother and him are.  He has five other siblings, but my husband makes sure I know that his mother and him are closer then any of the other kids and her.

One other thing, when I go over to visit without my husband, (my father-in-law is dying from cancer) my mother-in-law has been staying in the bedroom and letting me sit in the living room alone with my father-in-law and her daughter.  She won’t hardly visit with me anymore.  I know she’s real tired from taking care of her husband and watching him deteriate, but it all just is starting to make me feel like the fifth wheel.  Like I shouldn’t go over anymore.

What do you all think about all of this?  Do you think I am just being parinoid or do you think this is abnormal behavior between a mother and her son.  I find it just a little strange, but don’t worry about it a whole lot.  I’m just stating to feel uncomfortable because of all of the secrecy now.  She doesn’t want me included in what she tells my husband.  I respect it, but don’t understand it since there are plenty of oppurtunities to talk to him when I’m not there.  She has singled my husband out in the past, but probably only once or twice and only for like five minutes.  Now it seems I sit alone for 1/2 and hour or more while they talk their secrets.  My husband never shares, just says some things are between him and his mother.  I don’t like it.

I have a problem.  I was married to a mentally and verbally abusive man for 15 years.  He didn’t allow me to work outside the home and kept tight strings on me.  When I finally left him I had no idea of how to work outside the home, get a babysitter and basically just keep up with everything.  I was on assistants for a few years.

I met a man who after dating awhile knew my situation, but still wanted to marry me.  Now after a year of being married, he has issues with me not working outside the home.  

I still have no idea how to do it all, plus I have a son who has autism and at times I have to go to the school because he is crying and having issues.

This has caused a real division with my husband and I, and I hate it.  We will never have children together, I’m passed that age.  He has an attachment to my children, but not like I do or their dad does.

Does anyone have any ideas?  Can anyone out there working with small children tell me how to do it?  I literally get sick to my stomach thinking about it.  I have panic attacks.  I can do many things, but since I have never been in the work force, not many even look my direction.  After all I am in my 40’s and never been employed outside the home.  I did run a licensed daycare business for five years.  My husband won’t agree to let me do that again.  That’s all I know.  I would feel safe doing that again.

I am at a loss and I’m tired of him hassling me to go out and work.  I work at home and do it very well.  It’s safe for me.  Yet I feel I have to give an honest effort into trying it his way.

Thank you!
Desiree’

I was wondering if anyone else has the same problem as me.  In July 2006, I began a journey of becoming healthier inside and out.  Since then I have lost a total of 128 lbs.  For the most part I like the way I look and feel.

Problem is I have very lose skin on my upper arms, thighs and belly,  Without sugery to correct it, can anyone give me any ideas of how to lose the extras?  I’m almost to the point of thinking I’m just going to have to chalk it up to having eight wonderful children come out of my womb.  Any suggestions?

God saw you getting tired,
When a cure was not to be.
So He wrapped his arms around you,
And whispered, “Come on home to me“.
You didn’t deserve what you went through,
So God, allowed you to rest.
God’s garden must be beautiful,
For He only takes the best.
And when we saw you sleeping,
So peaceful and free from pain,
We could not wish you back to suffer that again.